Clasping a gem to my heart

2009-10-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

The thing I miss the most is
Waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes
I wish that I could stay
And I can't lie
But everytime I leave my heart turns grey
And I, I wanna come back home to see your face tonight...

Looking back at my posts
Brings back memories.

2009-10-22T13:18:00.000+08:00

Every day
I wake up to find myself, caught in the same mess
I really don't understand why must I do this everyday
It is that hard to say yes or no
You just won't understand
Looks like you forgot what we have discussed in the past
Your 'old' self is coming back again.

2009-10-04T21:56:00.001+08:00

I can't be as happy as I used to be anymore
But I know I have to do this for our sake.

2009-08-04T18:20:00.002+08:00

By the time you've seen this post
I've already shut myself out from everything.

2009-07-28T20:46:00.001+08:00

19 days to prelims
And I'm still doing crap.

2009-06-07T19:31:00.003+08:00

I am happy
I am content
I am delighted
I am gleeful
I am joyful
No more tears
No more sorrow
No more frowns
No more anger
No more discord

2009-06-05T18:50:00.003+08:00

I don't want to remember this post.
I want to stay happy.
*smile*

2009-06-05T18:46:00.002+08:00

I don't want to remember this post.
I want to stay happy.
*smile*

2009-06-03T19:19:00.001+08:00

I don't want to remember this post.
I want to stay happy.
*smile*

2009-06-03T14:32:00.002+08:00

I don't want to remember this post.
I want to stay happy.
*smile*

2009-05-25T20:52:00.001+08:00

It's time to forget the unhappy moments...

2009-04-13T17:17:00.003+08:00

It’s on the calendar
The number of years
Since my Saviour was born

It’s in the history books
The man they called Jesus
Walked the Earth

Majestic Ruler
Born in a stable
Helplessly crying in the night

The King of the heavens
Living as servant
Friends to the sinners
Light in the darkness

This is a story
For mankind
Written in history
For you and me

The love of the Saviour
Spelt in blood, spelt in blood

And the angels were silent
When God Himself
Laid on the Cross
For our sins

And the universe trembled
When she saw her Creator
Hung by nails
To a tree

Not a saint did He die for
But a wretch like me
His nail-scarred hands
Dripping with love

And the purpose for living
In His dying breath I hear
So soft and clear
Evermore
I’ll live for my Saviour

2009-04-11T23:29:00.001+08:00

Sacrifice when I'm called to
For when the time is right
God will reveal it.

2009-04-11T09:55:00.001+08:00

Worship in spirit and in truth

2009-04-07T21:21:00.001+08:00

Pick up my cross and follow You

2009-04-04T12:45:00.001+08:00

Love is patient
Love is kind
It does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud
It is not rude
It is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered
It keeps no record of wrongs
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth
It always protects
Always trusts
Always hopes
Always perseveres
Love never fails
And now these three remain:
Faith, hope and love
But the greatest of these is love.

2009-04-02T21:39:00.001+08:00

I need to learn how to control my emotions.

2009-03-31T22:49:00.002+08:00

4th Dimension

The 2 Dimension world controls the 1 Dimension world
The 3 Dimension world controls the 2 Dimension world
The 4 Dimension world controls the 3 Dimension world

Get into the 4th Dimension before leading people into the 3rd Dimension.

2009-03-29T21:53:00.002+08:00

I have an everlasting God
I have an ever faithful God
But, I want an everlasting faith as well.

2009-03-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

Calling

God gave me an advice
'You might lose something today'
But why didn't I listen?
Had I been more careful
My wallet would be in front of me right now
But, it's now in the hands of someone else I don't know
Hopefully the money would be put to good use
Even though the wallet is gone
I'm still able to be thankful
For letting me realize how aware I am of my surroundings
For letting me be more cautious in the future
For letting me know that there's always someone there to help me

2009-03-24T22:05:00.001+08:00

The happiness of falling down

2009-03-23T20:32:00.001+08:00

Rashness

Been too impulsive
Hurt people along the way
Sometimes I feel guilty
No, it shouldn't be sometimes
It is more like everytime
It haunts me like a shadow chasing its caster.

2009-03-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

Love that's stronger; Love that covers sin.

2009-03-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self-control.

2009-03-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

Sing hallelujah to the King

Sing hallelujah to my King

Sing hallelujah to the Risen King

The one who rescued me
The one who died for me

2009-03-19T10:38:00.001+08:00

-.-

2009-03-18T20:52:00.001+08:00

Blog undergoing downgrading

2009-03-16T22:38:00.000+08:00

Nicest day ever, since a while

2009-03-15T18:33:00.002+08:00

How do we repay Him?

How many times has He provided for us, but we took it for granted?
How many times has He forgave us, but we still continued to sin?
How many times has He given us strength to live for the day, but we don't do our QT?
I'm quite sure, from my experiences, many.

2009-03-14T20:31:00.001+08:00

I lift my voice
I lift my praise to You
I lift my hands
I lift my worship to You
And I love You more than I can say
Oh I love You more than I can say

Ever I will sing only You will I adore
Glorify my Lord only You will I serve
For the world will fade away
Still my song to You remains
Only You will I adore

2009-03-13T23:11:00.001+08:00

Thank You, Lord

English - C5
Chinese - D7
Elementary Mathematics - A1
Additional Mathematics - A2
Physics - A2
Chemistry - F9
Full Literature - B3
Social Studies + Geography - B4
L1R5 - 17

Time to pull up my socks
I can't afford to throw away Chinese in June
Other than that, I have to put in consistent effort.

2009-03-12T22:28:00.001+08:00

Bright sunlight shining on my face
Dark clouds on the other side of the sky
End times.

2009-03-11T22:31:00.003+08:00

You've gotten upset over something which was expected of me
And now you've ticked me off for something that wasn't wrong
I'm feeling so bad deep down inside
And you're telling me to forget everything that has happened
I'm sorry I can't
I'm a human being, like you
I have feelings
It takes time

2009-03-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

Family

And now I know
It's just myself
If I talked more in the past
The house wouldn't seem so dead
Wouldn't seem so quiet
So it is just me
Now that I've opened up a little more
I start to see the liveliness of my home.

2009-03-10T22:30:00.001+08:00

My soul yearns, even faints,
For the courts of the Lord;
My heart and my soul shouts for the living God

2009-03-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

2009-03-08T20:32:00.001+08:00

Happiness is like peeing in your pants. Others can see it but only you can feel its warmth

2009-03-07T23:54:00.003+08:00

Hearing God's Voice

It all links to obedience
If you do not obey God the first time He calls you
Why should He call you again?
So, we must obey
Spend more time with God
And you'll be able to differentiate His voice among other voices

Oh, how much I want to hear the voice of God
I want You to tell me what to do
I want to fufill Your will
I want to serve You and love You more
And most importantly, I need You.

Tell the flesh : EH SHUT UP!

2009-03-05T20:35:00.001+08:00

Great is the Lord God almighty
Great is the Lord on High
The Train of his robe fills the temple
and we cry out highest praise

2009-03-04T21:03:00.001+08:00

Tree is growing. We am slowing.

2009-03-03T21:19:00.001+08:00

When I want to help, I can't

2009-03-03T20:26:00.000+08:00

Job 23:10-11
"But he knows the way that I take;
When he has tested me,
I will come forth as gold.
My feet have closely followed his steps;
I have kept to his way without turning aside."

Obey. I shall continue to obey.

2009-03-02T20:43:00.004+08:00

Parents, what are they?

How comfortable are you at home?
How much do you like your home?
Do you appreciate the things your parents do?
If yes, what do you appreciate?

Complain. Complain. Complain.
Over-react. Over-react. Over-react.
But at the end of the day, what is it for?
Its not for themselves, but for their kids
Every night they worry so much because their child is not home yet
Fearing that their child might be in danger, they're unable to sleep
So after all, is it the child's fault that the parents have lack of sleep?
Obviously, a solid YES
Without even bringing the subject of siblings,
How much respect do parents receive everyday?
Or should I phrase it
Is the child even showing respect to their parents?
Must it be only when something bad happens before I wake up?
Must it be only when its a little too late before I regret?
Maybe its time I woke up
How many times already have my parents asked me a question,
And I simply turned my back against them?
Sorry, I lost count
To think of the fact that I actually penned down :

My parents think that I'm a good-for-nothing
My parents don't care about me

It really shows how much I care for this family
FAMILY - Father and Mother, I love you
How long has it been since I last said (or even whispered) that to my parents?
Sorry, I can't remember
And I've said it in front of the whole youth congregation
The false statements of my parents
Damage has already been done to my parents
And now I can only live with this guilt within me
A guilt that will never pass away (perhaps not for a short while)
I seek the Lord, so He may tell me something
All these while I've been sinning against God
Not showing my parents the honor that they're due
This relationship has been cut for too long
It is time that I've done something

So I've been misjudged by my parents
I've changed for the worst
ALL BECAUSE OF CHRISTIANITY
When I look back and reflect, I really have changed for the worst
But that is at home, and it has no regards to Christianity
Of course you both have heard 'testimonies' from teachers
Saying that I've changed a lot from Secondary 1 & 2
Changed for the BETTER
But that, I'm sure, is not enough to convince you both
You may threatened me
You may misjudge me
But I'll still stand firm on my grounds
If ever one day you ask me 'Who do you value more? God or us?'
I'll be ever sure that you'll get the answer you do not want to hear

Psalm 73:25-26
"Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

Still, the guilt within me
It all just makes me want to do something
Even though the damage has been done
But I'm sure I can ease the pain inside now

Mum, Dad, I love you
Wait for my results, I'll please you both

2009-03-01T17:31:00.003+08:00

Kiasu-ness of Singaporeans

Ashamed to be a Singaporean
Before the train arrives
People are so blind that they can't see whats on the floor
Can't you see the YELLOW marking
It's telling you to stand behind that
So people can get out of the train
For you to enter the train
Gosh, Singaporeans have no common sense

2009-02-28T23:45:00.001+08:00

Obey. Obey. Obey. Yes I will.

2009-02-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

B3 for Physics. 0.5 marks to A2. If it was O's I'd bang into a wall

2009-02-26T21:56:00.002+08:00

The end of the start

End of Common Test is tomorrow
But the paper tomorrow is Full Literature
So its kind of holiday mood for Full Lit boys
Still, its just the beginning
O Level Chinese coming in 3 month
I'm not even ready
I can't read
I can't write
Sigh, time to do something about it.

2009-02-25T22:17:00.002+08:00

First Love

Oh, finally completed my song
In 2.5 hours
Of course by the grace of God
At least another song to worship and glorify
I'm proud of myself
Yet at the same time am still humble
Heh, the irony of words

2009-02-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

Geography is fail. On to maths and science

2009-02-23T20:32:00.001+08:00

Sigh, I'm so careless

2009-02-22T20:13:00.001+08:00

dy/dx changes its value like a girl changes clothes.

2009-02-21T22:06:00.002+08:00

Instrumentalist, Musician

Apparently I should start learning how to take ownership of my instrument
Or I'll never be able to become a musician
Provoking questions really makes one ponder
It's more of a reality check
It's true that a leader tells you what you need to hear
Not what you want to hear
Thank you Sean for the wonderful session

2009-02-20T22:33:00.003+08:00

Run

Running everyday doesn't sound like a bad idea
It keeps me fit, and at the same time tone up my muscles
A little bit of work out wouldn't hurt too

And now, common tests are approaching
And I've yet to revised anything
Electrolysis? Differentiation?
Naw, they aren't at my fingertips yet
They're probably at my knuckles now
With only two occupied days left
How am I going to study?
Term One Common Test
Make it or break it
Bring it on.

2009-02-19T20:50:00.001+08:00

Alas, after what seemed like years

2009-02-18T16:46:00.001+08:00

Let Your kingdom come on earth. Let Your will be done
Let every kingdom of this earth bow.

Let the sinners sing for joy, we are saved by grace
Let every saint break through these doors and shout

You’re calling out, “who will go?”

I will go. I will live the life. I’ll give it all for Jesus Christ.
I’ll tell the world that You are God.
I will go. Hear my battle cry. Give me wings so I can fly
And tell the world that You are God.

Here am I, here am I, I will give all that is mine.
Here am I, here am I, Jesus come and spend my life.

I will go. I will live the life. I’ll give it all for Jesus Christ.
I’ll tell the world that You are God.
I will go. Hear my battle cry. Give me wings so I can fly
And tell the world that You are God

2009-02-17T19:32:00.000+08:00

Awaiting for March, but theres much to prepare for

2009-02-16T23:00:00.001+08:00

The Lord just spoke to me, "It's been long since I heard you speak to me in tongues."

2009-02-16T22:35:00.004+08:00

Embark on a new journey?

Just completed the 3 week lessons on sound
Equalizers, Mixers, Line in are all jumbled up in my head
I'm just so afraid that these 3 weeks' effort might just go down the drain
But I pray that by the grace of God, I'll be able to remember everything
So that hopefully I can impart something to Soundman You Fu

Few things that I'm considering :

1. Get baptized next year?

2. Join Music Ministry next year?

3. JC or Poly?

Apparently, getting baptized next year is not a bad idea
The sooner the better, but I should also take time to pause and think
Joining the Music Ministry doesn't sound bad either
But it just means that I have to commit myself to one more thing
And it also means that I must keep practicing to improve myself
I do not believe one can attain maximum performance level
The biggest room in this world is the room for improvement
JC or Poly, there are just too many pros and cons
So many that it'll take me days to list them all out here
But looking at the demand of recruitment currently
It scares me so much that I feel like entering JC
Many things to observe
Many things to reflect
Many things to act on.

2009-02-15T21:17:00.001+08:00

Independence, the road to treasuring something

2009-02-15T21:02:00.001+08:00

Hangin' on

I haven't been providing you with the best
And now there's an obstacle in front of us
Face it with boldness, shall we?

2009-02-14T23:36:00.003+08:00

Void

2009-02-14T00:02:00.001+08:00

Fun that lasts for a moment
Laughter that lasts like a spasm
Peace that lasts for a long time
Joy that lasts for eternity

2009-02-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

I feel like I'm going to fail

2009-02-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

I can't plan for nuts

2009-02-11T20:32:00.002+08:00

Forcing others

Well, never force other people to do something that they do not want to
Chances are, things will go against your way
And you'll start to think that its the person's fault
Instead of admitting to the fact that it is solely your fault
But when I force others to do something
From the start I already know if something goes wrong
It will definitely be my fault first
Sigh. Things are starting not to go according to my own way
Even in school, outside of school, within this household
I'm constantly praying, not letting go of my lifeline
For I know the One that has sovereign control
Will hear my prayers and answer them.

2009-02-10T20:27:00.002+08:00

It's been long since I started exercising

I believe God is raising all of us into warriors
Warriors for the Kingdom of God
And I believe it is not myself that I just suddenly felt like exercising
I believe the Holy Spirit told me to go out there and run
And I'm reminded on how unfit I am
Even though I'm strong for my weight category
But it doesn't mean that I'm strong and fit
Without this daily training
How am I going to overcome more obstacles in the nearing future?
God will no doubt test me, and I must be ready
And, I'm very sure of what obstacles are coming next.

2009-02-09T16:37:00.001+08:00

My mum thinks I'm three year old

2009-02-08T20:52:00.002+08:00

Find a need and meet it. Find a hurt and heal it.

2009-02-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

Sadness, Anger, Despair

What happened, wasn't under my control
I didn't want that to happened
But it felt like it was all my fault
Even though your heat went off fast
But mine could not
It was kept inside
I couldn't express myself at all
I'm sorry

Sometimes I wonder whether am I good enough for you

2009-02-05T21:04:00.002+08:00

So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another - Romans 12:5

Unity
That's what we're all looking for
If any one of us gets left behind
We cannot move as a body of Christ
All for one, one for all
In order to win souls, let's move together
15 souls, by faith, will be ours by June

2009-02-04T19:26:00.003+08:00

Would you believe me if I said
That we are the ones who can make the change
In the world today?
Would you believe me if I said
That all of your dreams in your heart
Can come true today?
Would you believe me if I said
That life could be all that you want it to be today?

And if I had wings I would fly
'Cause all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
To You I'd still hold on
Cause You're all that I believe
And the one that created me
Jesus because of You I'm free

Would you believe me if I said
That God can make miracles happen today?
Would you believe me if I said
That you don't need to wait for the answers before
You step out in faith?
Would you believe me if I said
That nothing is ever impossible for God?

And if I had wings I would fly
'Cause all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
To You I'd still hold on
Cause You're all that I believe
And the one that created me
Jesus because of You I'm free

Just live your life with God inside
You wont regret one moment of it
And give all that you can for God, for God

And if I had wings I would fly
'Cause all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
To You I'd still hold on
Cause You're all that I believe
And the one that created me
Jesus because of You

And if I had wings I would fly
'Cause all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
To You I'd still hold on
Cause You're all that I believe
And the one that created me
Jesus because of You I'm free

As we were looking for a spectacle shop
Because we wanted to purchase a simple box of
Brown contact lenses that will 'enlarge your eyeballs'
God spoke a simple message into me
As we were looking around
The optical shops neither had them nor had the degree suited
So, as we were about to give up hope that we'd find a shop
We decided to explore the whole area as it is the only chance left
And wow, we found a shop, with a cheap price as well
But through this, what is the message?
Simple, God is telling us that
If we are willing to explore more (in any way)
God will definitely be with us no matter what
And where there seems to be no way
God will make a way.

2009-02-03T21:37:00.001+08:00

You were God from the outset,
powerful and creative
You had sought us here before
You called all the stars and the earth to existence

You are God, You are Holy
History’s Your story
You who was and is and forever will be, God we live for Your glory

So we will run altogether with hearts aflame
Like a fire that can’t be tamed
Our God all glory to Your name, Jesus

You are God You are freedom,
You’re alive now within us
You who sought us here before
You conquered the grave
You’re living on Your promise

So we will run altogether our hearts aflame
with a fire that can’t be tamed
Our God all glory to Your name
We will run Our surrender to bring You fame
Our desire that You be praised
Our God all glory to Your name, Jesus!

2009-02-03T20:13:00.002+08:00

Reaction

I noticed that whenever someone pushes me
My reaction seems to be different from other people
Usually others would fall front
But I'd instead fall back
Hmm... worth studying about

When I looked around in the old folks' home
I just didn't feel good about it
It's like looking at the people
Who are there because of a bad cause
And now some of them are just waiting to be "reincarnated"
But in actual fact they're just heading into hell
Something must be done about this
Revolutionary time

Competition is coming

2009-02-01T21:20:00.003+08:00

6117

Are you on the menu in Thai Express?
Because you're hotter than 6117
6117 - the most feared spicy dish ever
Claimed to be "Yellow Ginger Chicken Rice"
However it was as spicy as hell
Even the people eating it were literally flying all over the place
Their thirst for water grew exponentially
Laughter was expressed by the other people around the table
Enjoyable day... The joy of brotherly love
15 people by the end of June
Shall come to Christ
The vision, the dream, the revolution
Together with God, we'll make it right.

2009-01-31T22:50:00.003+08:00

The feeling of the outside

Even though no one wanted this to happen
But I'm missing out all the fun
Every cell should be leaving from different houses now
After a very nice Chinese New Year dinner with their cell mates
Whilst I'm at home typing this blog post
And beforehand I was indulging in games
Well, can't complain much
Birthday celebrations, and the love received by cell leaders
I want to be part of all these
But I'm cooped up in these four walls
Slowly thinking, having imagination
Just received news about the fun Sophia had
Tau-pok, pillow fights, and filming
Sigh, I wonder what is Kairos up to now
Only news that I have received is that they're watching funny videos
And I can watch them alone in my house
Sigh... Hope next time I don't miss out all these fun.

2009-01-30T22:53:00.003+08:00

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about you
All about you Jesus.
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When it's all about you,
All about you Jesus.

I have no rights to feel hurt now
But when I reminisce about what happened
Everything just flows like a river
Like a movie in my head
Everything, clear and vivid
Each time I think about it
It just makes me feel worse
Every second thinking about those times
Is just like a blade that cuts right through me
Though you're feeling hurt inside
But in me, I am feeling just as hurt and bad as well
But I constantly remind myself
Who is the one that is by my side
Who is the one that really cares for me
Who is the one that is there when everyone else is gone
Who is the one that will never leave me
Who is the one that will always wait for me
Unfortunately, this is just a vicious cycle

2009-01-29T21:08:00.002+08:00

You've shown me life
You've opened my eyes
To the truth that there's no greater love
I love your understanding.

2009-01-28T19:42:00.002+08:00

Reminiscence

Thinking back about the past
How things actually changed
So much, so fast
No matter how much we've been through
Sometimes I still feel bad
When you sit there and the expression on your face doesn't change
When I tried my best but I can't make you feel better
Perhaps my best is not good enough?
But no matter what happens
I know that in the end
All will be fine again
I will miss you

2009-01-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

Get well soon, Justin

Don't worry too much okay?

2009-01-27T19:00:00.001+08:00

As the deer panteth for the water,
So my soul longeth after thee
You alone are my hearts desire
And I long to worship you.

You alone are my strength, my shield.
To you alone may my spirit yield.
You alone are my hearts desire
And I long to worship you.

You're my friend, and You are my brother
Even though You are a King.
and I love You more than any other
So much more than anything.

i miss you

2009-01-27T11:33:00.002+08:00

Dark days become sunny
Frigid days become warm,
Rainy days become cloudless
And lightning got wiped away from the storm.

Oceans sing,
Rocks cry out,
Mountains roar,
And tree branches shout.

The stars fall
Right out of the sky.
The moon winks
And the sun went dry.

All because you said one thing
All because you said it true
All because you made me smile
All because you made it through
All because you said I love you.

2009-01-26T22:58:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year

Not the same as the previous years
Not because of the sore throat
Something seems to be missing
Even though for the past 15 years of Chinese New Year
There wasn't anything missing at all
But it is only this year that I feel a sense of emptiness within me
I miss you

2009-01-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're what I want, my love, my Valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And shown me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart until the end of time
You're what I want, my love, my Valentine

2009-01-25T08:36:00.002+08:00

Excellent atmosphere

An absolute wow
The atmosphere
I could feel it even if I was upfront
Everyone was worshipping
No one was left out
We even brought the non-believers into an attitude of worship
How amazing can that be
Continue to pour Your blessings upon us
Thank You

2009-01-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

Sunset

Off an island
Where beautiful landscapes lie
The sun slowly sets
And the colours change
Extraordinary feeling
Just too awesome for words
Savoured every moment
And I will never regret
Thank You, Lord

2009-01-22T18:35:00.001+08:00

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
And who told the ocean you can only come this far?
And who showed the moon where to hide till evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
All of creation testifies
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives

The very same God
That spins things in orbit
Runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know, my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know
My Redeemer

He lives
To take away my shame
And He lives
Forever I'll proclaim
That the payment for my sins
Was the precious life He gave
And now He's alive and
There's an empty grave.

2009-01-21T20:24:00.002+08:00

Testimonies

Three more days before I lead people into the presence of the Lord
Three more days before I share some testimonies that I have

Thank You Lord, I can never thank you enough
You've guided me through this whole week
Awesome is the Lord most high
For with God nothing will be impossible
You've taken away anger that lived in my heart
You've taken away hatred that overwhelmed my heart
You've taken away discord that filled my heart
And my heart now belongs to You
Fill it with Your love
So much until it could just overflow into others
How much I pray that the very ones that are in this household
Will be saved someday
The vision that you give me, by faith I shall follow it
Continue to guide me Lord as You use me
Thank You Lord for opening the heart of Jing Han
Continue to open his heart more Lord so he may just feel your Love
Let him be touched by You O' Heavenly Father
The vision that You gave me
He will lift his hands in worship to the Lord
He will read the Word of God
He will lead more people into the Kingdom of God
In my Saviour, my Comfort, my Shelter and my Jesus's name
Amen

2009-01-18T18:56:00.001+08:00

My Jesus, My Savior,
Lord, there is none like You;
All of my days
I want to praise
the wonders of Your mighty love.

My comfort, my shelter,
Tower of refuge and strength;
let every breath, all that I am
never cease to worship You.

Shout to the Lord, all the earth,
let us sing
power and majesty, praise to the King;
mountains bow down and the seas will roar
at the sound of Your name.
I sing for joy at the work of Your hands,
forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand,
nothing compares to the promise I have in You.

2009-01-18T00:54:00.002+08:00

Starry skies

Absolutely beautiful
Each time I lift my head up
I just feel like thanking God
The splendid creation of stars
Captivates my eyes
We were there
Staring into the sky
This is my first time seeing so many stars
Feels like a fantasy
However I'm reminded by the fact that
What is it Heaven will be greater
Looking up into the sky together is sure wonderful
The calm in our hearts
The peace in our souls
The serenity in our minds
All the joyous feelings
And I'm waiting for the next time...

2009-01-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

Peace in the midst of 'persecution'

Thank You Lord
You've seen me through my darkest times
When I asked and knocked
You were there to answer
Lord You are always good
Guiding me and answering me
When I call, You're always there
But sometimes when You call, I won't be there
Lord please help me to answer your calls
With all my heart Lord I am here to serve You
Take away my thoughts of procrastination
Take away my thoughts of being reluctant
Help me that when You call
I will be there instantaneously
In Jesus's name, amen

What I'm doing, is it worth?
What I'm doing, does she notice?
How much I care, does she realise?
How much I'm going through, does she care?
How much I love her, does she feel it?

I've tried, tried my best
But she just doesn't seem to appreciate what I've done
I've done, done my best
But my best just doesn't seem to be good enough for her
Apology, my most frequently used tool
But she just doesn't seem to accept it

What I'm doing, is it worth?
What I'm doing, is it real?
What I'm doing, is it love?
It's not up to me to decide
The answer is just in her heart...

2009-01-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter
But you feel so far away
And I can't lie
But everytime I leave my heart turns grey
And I, I wanna come back home to see your face tonight...

Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
I can wait, I can wait forever...

You look so beautiful today
It's like everytime I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man, I wish that I could stay
And I can't lie, but everytime I leave my heart turns grey
And I, I wanna come back home to see your face tonight...

I know it feels like forever
I guess thats just a price I've gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch makes it better
'Til that day there's nothing else I can do

2009-01-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

Physically hurt

The text on the screen looks fine
But the fingers that are doing the job ain't
Four clear cuts on the joints
And a sprained/fractured/broken/crushed knuckle
Great, I can't use the guitar for worship now
2nd for inter-class soccer
5th for inter-class rugby
As compared to last year
3rd for inter-class soccer
2nd for inter-class rugby
Oh dear what happened to rugby?
Somehow, I just get the feeling it was over confidence
Well this is the last year
At least we all had fun
Whether we participated or not

Oh Lord, I need your power
I need Your healing
I need Your anointing
I need Your guidance
I need You to lead the way
School's starting already but I'm feeling so weary
I need Your strength to pull through this
You've put me in a school not for no reason
I am called to be a student
And I shall do what you have commanded me to
I pray that my finger (left index) will get well soon
May I continue to serve you
Even when I pick up my guitar at home
Even when I pick up my cross daily and follow you Lord
I pray your presence is always with me
And that You'd be there to show the way
I pray this in my Saviour's name, Jesus Christ
Amen

2009-01-12T22:13:00.003+08:00

All authority, every victory is Yours

You were full with exclamation marks
All of a sudden you couldn't wait at all
Neither could I
I sat there waiting
10 minutes passed
Attempting on my homework
20 minutes passed
Started on my quiet time
30 minutes passed
Finished what I could do there
40 minutes passed
Waiting in vain
50 minutes passed
There you were walking out
Unable to contain the emotions within you
Almost like you wanted to embrace me in your arms
Out of the area, we went
Sharing about times we had in school
Fun, yes, more fun
Only to find out that time was not on our side
Stomachs were rumbling
Without any choice, food was in our mind
Devouring and discussing
On how alike we are
Its amazing how a CD shop can provide entertainment
Even without the movie, it is all right
It is like a jigsaw puzzle piece
That fits into the 'Entertain Me' section
Pig stomach, almond, ice
Yummy combination

Tears just streamed down my cheeks
Touched by text on the screen
Words that mean so much to me
Thank you

2009-01-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

Motivation

I am motivated
I am inspired
And it is out of own will
That I will strive on to perform better
To practise more everyday
And also not to stray away from my pilgrimage
Arrogance shall not consume me
With determination, I will strive

2009-01-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

The wait that is worth

It is an inner feeling
50 minutes of waiting
Only for that 15 minutes (or less) of enjoyment
However, I'm sure it is worth
Every second counts, meaningful

Time to start training

2009-01-08T21:13:00.002+08:00

Paper balls

Fun lies in school
Where everyone have paper ball fights
Throwing paper balls at each other
Sometimes even out of the window
I think, my best day in school so far this year

2009-01-06T18:01:00.002+08:00

Direction

We're currently like North and South
We're attracted to each other
But so far apart we are
Just like the North and South pole

It really hurts me to see you like this
Have you known how much it hurts?
Have you known how does it affects me?
You don't know where I am coming from
You really don't know
All my concern and care
And seeing at where you are heading
It feels like I am pierce through the heart
With a ten foot long spear
And it was hard to get over with
I'm just feeling worse and worse everyday
Not even once would you come with me?
I guess time will take it course
Hopefully and by faith, slowly but surely.

2009-01-05T20:44:00.001+08:00

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You.

2009-01-04T22:20:00.004+08:00

Chances

Chances are that someone better will come along the way
Chances are that we'd feel different to each other
Chances are that we won't even be friends
Chances are that we may still be together when time comes

Chances are opportunities
I'll never give up on it
Where there is hope, there will be a way for us
And I strongly believe that if we endure, tolerate, persevere
In time to come, we'd see the light at the end of the tunnel
And we'd rejoice together, laughing our hearts out

I know I shouldn't be waiting
I know I shouldn't be contemplating about this
I know I shouldn't be concerned about you too much
But for one thing, that
I know I can't bring myself to let go of you.

2009-01-04T20:16:00.003+08:00

No one ever taught you not to lie?
No one ever taught you not to spread rumours?
No one ever taught you to respect others?
I guess the answer is yes.